You've Said it All

For those who aren't familiar, when you say Wisconsin, you've said it all. I'm not kidding

And it's true. I LOVE this place. Commencement exercises were this past weekend (so I'm officially a graduate!) and I can't really describe it, even 36 hours later. So, here's the story.

For a bit of background, I wasn't terribly excited about this whole "walking" thing. I've been to a college graduation before. It was boring. I listened to an unimaginative speaker blather on about how life was pointless - I'm not kidding - and then they read names. For an hour. BUT, the one thing that got me through it was seeing my sister graduate. So that made it worth it. At any rate, I wasn't pumped for this at all, and at a few points I was considering not even doing it.

As it turns out, our Chancellor is hilarious, the Provost is a riot, and I have a ton of friends that walked with me that I didn't even know were going to do it. Seeing them was a real treat. And then I got to walk and give whole Kohl Center a "go an' brush ya shouldas off" look via Jumbotron when they handed me that coveted red diploma holder (the real deal shows up in the mail 12 weeks from now...blergh). I got to see my parents and family thrilled, happy and excited. I got to sit next to John, a roommate I will miss terribly. I got to joke around with Mike, a classmate from the ol' Hilltop and a perennial source of smiles. I got to sing Varsity one more time and John and I belted that out louder than I think either of us ever have, football games included. Then, they played You've Said It All (colloquially, "Bud"), and I lost it. I hopped up on the chair I was standing in, fist-pumped the whole way through it, and wore one of the biggest smiles I have ever had.

And why not? I'm so excited about MCW, but at the same time, this is home. I love this place. Our speaker James Kass talked a bit about his experiences in Madison. I, too, lived on both lakes, walked the many miles through the snow between tests, went to 5th quarter (although the Badgers were at least better than they were in 1991), laid in the sun on Bascom, locked myself in cages in the library, sat for hours on the terrace - I, too, love this place.

I'm very fortunate. My parents paid my tuition. Taxpayers built the facilities I used every day. Professors and administrators fought tooth and nail for the grants that enabled me to perform my research. My professors spent hours editing and refining to give me the best they had. My classmates pushed me to do more. Many of them became my friends, and a few of them have changed my life in ways that I can't begin to enumerate (and not just due to my illiteracy, it's more than that). I'm going to a great medical school for my dream position, and SO many people here at UW made that a reality for me.

Maybe one of the best things of the day was having lunch with my family and then running around campus with my mom taking pictures in all my favorite places. I'll be home later this week, so expect pics then, but in the mean time, believe me when I say they are good.

Bottom line: I'm in a very happy spot. I graduated from a world university with honors, and am headed to a very enviable program to pursue my dream as a physician-scientist. But more than anything else, with this comes great commitment. I have a moral obligation to the public, my family and myself to make something of this. And that, my friends, is the great joy that stands before me.

U!
Rah!
Rah!
Wis!
Con!
Sin!

Working Break

Ok, so one thing you need to know (and most of you do, thankfully): I am a total nerd. I was born one, and dammit, that's one of the reasons I'm doing this whole MSTP thing. And I love it. Apple isn't just a media darling, I've loved these guys forever. Even in 1996. Still, I saw something today which gave me reason for pause (and yes, this constituted my study break today):

"The Android mobile operating system passed Apple Inc.'s (AAPL) iPhone in terms of U.S. market share during the first quarter, according to a report issued Monday by the NPD Group."
-Wall Street Journal

..This prompted the following response from my end:

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Dear Mr. Jobs,

As you know, recent reports indicate that the iPhone OS has now dipped below Android for market share.
As a shareholder, I'm duly curious to know when Apple will accept that 68% of the market is not AT&T and move accordingly.

Thank you.


Most Sincerely,
Raman Kutty
The Medical College of Wisconsin
Class of 2018
262-893-5252 (Cell)
kutty@wisc.edu (Main)
r.kutty@neurosurg.wisc.edu (Work)
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I doubt I will hear back from him. And if I do, I doubt it will be more than 2 words...likely something to the effect of "shut it". Still, I think it's important.

Apple has gone this path before. They used to have a dominant foothold in education and they lost it to the PC because of a great deal of arrogance on their part. History repeats itself, but this time it had better not. I hope they learned from that mistake - they're still feeling the burn from their past indiscretions.

Apple has some GREAT technology. Unfortunately, AT&T sucks. Take my position: I hate my RAZR. hate hate hate. But, I love US Cellular (these guys are pretty good!). I love the iPhone. love love love. But, AT&T's version of "service" leaves a lot to be desired.

Come on, Apple. Get it together and hookup with some new partners.

We're Halfway There!

Fortunately though, not yet living on a prayer.

...Yet.

Topping my to-do list for the last couple of years was "earn Biochem degree from Madison". Today, I can check that off. Handed in was the last assignment for the last class, a whopper of a lab report on ß-galactosidase. It's too bad, he's a hard working little enzyme, but often gets overshadowed on this campus by the BMoC, ADH. Anyway, all done with Kms, Vmaxes, Michaelis-Menten steady state kinetics...needless to say, I really enjoyed working on that for the last couple of days.


Still though, it's a nice feeling, having all that done! I really can't give the faculty here enough credit, it's a fantastic program. More than anything else, the courses I took for the degree I feel have prepared me more than anything else for the MSTP. I came in liking science, now I live it. And, I can say that truthfully.

Still though, we're not done just yet. At this point, it's all for show (no big). 2 more exams and a thesis from now I'll have a neat little stole with 3 cardinal bars on it. Really, it's just a handy little handle to grab and remind us to be humble. Honors students do need some reminding, after all.

Righty-oh, time to hit the books for a bit/enjoy this campus. 5 days left as a college student, time to finish right and make the most of it!

Memento Mori

The irony of being a physician is that in one's career, death will become a part of life.

I've been very lucky; I've accomplished many things this year that I never thought possible. And I'm so happy that my [adopted] grandmother, Loretta, was there to see so much of it. As for the rest of it, she'll be watching from above.

A golden heart stopped beating today, but after 94 years, it was time. This one's for you, Loretta.

Another Kutty on Pub Med? Oh, Brother.

A few weeks ago, Matt Clark offered this succinct review of the Cream City MSTP blog:
"...I, for one, would like to see some science content." Well, wish granted. Eat your heart out big guy:

Science!

So great news: it's a pub! My First! Granted, I have a long ways to rack of the star power of my dad but it's a good start! Of course, there's a lot more to go - first author will be key and on something novel (i.e. not review). But for someone just starting a research career, I'm more than pleased with it.

Big props to the lab, especially Mike, Paul and Jonathan for all the work they put into it. And of course, Dr. Kuo.

So here we go, more to come!

Wake Me Up When May Ends

Whoa boy.

I'm in the middle of a lab report for biochem at the moment (diligently, of course), so naturally a blog post is in order.

It's been a while since I posted, mostly because life is happening a little too fast right now and isn't showing too much of a break. So here we go:

Top of the month: revist at MCW. Got a great chance to meet some of the faculty and current students, as well as some of the prospective students. Here are the highlights:

Faculty:
Had a bunch of great meetings with faculty at MCW. The biggest problem I face is picking from them - all of the labs seem so superb. Lots of very passionate researchers doing tons of great things. A future PhD's dreamworld, really. I did get to meet with Dr. Stephen Gauld, and it was a pretty interesting talk. He works with autoimmunity (a la B-cell Anergy), a current interest of mine. Basically went something like this:

So, uh, you should be pretty familiar with this stuff...
Yeah, I'm not. I suck at Immuno. But I'm not completely worthless, I *love* biochem
Oh great, you'll fit right in.
Awesome, and learning some Immuno along the way can only make me a better doctor!
Great.

And so on. Really, really interesting work in an area that I am strongly deficit in. Time to branch out a bit and explore!

Also, sat next to the brand spankin' new dean of the graduate school, Dr. Ravi Misra at dinner. Very bubbly guy, very well informed and completely on top of things. Perhaps the best thing about the dinner was that I was instilled with a really strong sense of direction and purpose as far as the grad school goes. Really good thing.

You really can't say enough about the students at MCW. They all LOVE what they are doing and they seem really interested in the future students. Obviously, a great sign for someone in desperate need of all the help he can get his hands on. Oh, and there's an MUHS grad to boot (LTF, Rick Lennertz).

Future students were a good mix, had a great group feel. Met a future roommate of mine, Chris, which is always great! It's always a bit unnerving to jump into a new group with no idea what to expect, but this was really smooth. As for the remainder, it's hard to say since I don't know who will actually be coming to MCW. All the same, they're all bright and motivated...blah blah blah, all the stuff you expect from Mud Fuds. We'll know the full list of matriculants, uh, soon. -ish.

Since then:
work work work! So much stuff to do at UW before I peace out. Topping the list:
Honors papers for Human Sexuality (exceptionally unstimulating), honors paper for African Storyteller (dear God, literary analysis makes me want to run for the hills these days), exam for Biochemical Methods, 3 lab reports for the same (and I want to do this the rest of my life?!), final exams, coordinating research rotations, finding a place to live, thinking about a car (well...that's slipped to the back burner for now), social life (a what now?)...the list goes on. And that's before the real work even begins.

The good news though: Ramani has been really on top of living arrangements for next year (did I mention we're going to live together next year!?), so that helps a ton. Might have found a place today, Ramani's going to go scope it out tomorrow and give us the deets on it. Praying it's not shady, because it looks like a good fit. Pray for us.

Also, they're going to give me a vacation! HURRAY! Probably the last one I'll ever REALLY get (completely free of commitments...well, ok mostly....ok sort of...yeah, no) for the rest of my life, so I'm hoping for a great week. Word to people staying in Madison: I'll be couch surfing, so show a brown man some love?

All for now, time to get back to this lab report so I can enjoy another great day in Madison tomorrow!

Officially, it's officially official.

Got the written letter in the mail yesterday. 100% in. Sent my acceptance note to Dr. Barbieri, so I'm 100% going to MCW. Now to let NYU know that I'm peacing out and we should be good. Whatever, I looked terrible in purple anyway.

Short aside: decided to scrap the house idea. Not functional right now, but maybe next year. Might have been a bit too ambitious for a start...so time to build some capital and credit, a la car payments and savings. Hold on to your hats, folks; this is about to get interesting.

Headed back to Mah'wakee later today for the tail end of break. Lots of people to see at MCW, lots of thank yous to dole out. So many people who helped me out in such big ways there!

Time for bed. So sleepeh.